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Lust ([personal profile] a_sin_for_him) wrote2014-05-06 09:35 am
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001 | Voice

[Nothing makes any sense whatsoever. Lust feels like she's in a radio drama only she doesn't have the script and everyone's speaking a different language. She understands, but understanding doesn't help her make sense of it any. How she got here or why. And the spherical blue abomination she's found herself with looks more like something that should be on a little girl's toy chest, not following her. It isn't as though he's difficult to take care of, or even an annoyance, she only questions the judgement of placing any living thing in her care.

She's thankful at least, for the fact that she's finally escaped her master's reach. Strange as this place is, she's no longer a tool for some miserable husk of a woman who should have been long dead. And she's thankful also for the information device, even without much context for the information it holds. And the fact that it can apparently be used as a communication device. Most comfortable with telephones, she initiates the voice function.]


Much as I hate to simply call out to the void, I'm afraid it's likely my most fruitful option.

Do I understand that I'm expected to work?

[She's never held down any sort of job in her life. How did one even get a job?]
ossifragant: (⊕ created by a man)

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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-06 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe. But that's my Sin, isn't it? I'm Greed. I care too much. There are two people who have betrayed me. But I can't...

I can't truly hate them.

[Greed doesn't either, really. The only person he's ever loved is Dante and that was a terribly one-sided thing.]

I...

[He's honestly never thought about it like that before.]

How do creatures like us ever blend into humanity? Even now, even in this place that has made me human, I...

I don't know what it's like to be human. I can't remember.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-06 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's not aware of it, not really.]

It's because of how we were made, I think. We wear the faces of the dead. We carry some of their memories.

The second betrayal is what will send me to my death, and yet I... if I saw him... if he came here...

I don't know what I'd do.

Ask him why, maybe? Ask him why he would betray me for a chance to run back to his old master who had thrown him away? But then. I did the same thing as him, the first chance I got.

Maybe I'm more human than I want to admit.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-06 11:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh wow.

That was way more transparent he realized. For her to say that, when the thought had never once entered his head.]


Love... him?

What?

I... I...

We-- it wasn't... it wasn't like that.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-06 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[OKAY MOVING ON IMMEDIATELY]

I know.

How can I not? Envy and I were close, once upon a time.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-07 12:08 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know. When souls are real, tangible things... When you can hold them in your hand, feel the life force pulse like a beating heart...

I don't know what makes us different. If we can act as humans act, if we can feel emotions. Sorrow, anger, joy... love.

If we were truly soulless, I don't think we would have that sort of capacity. I think then, we really would be mindless puppets for Dante.

But we're not. Because we're still people.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-07 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
Of course we are.

Alchemists are wrong. We may be kept alive by the stones and held together by the arrays on our bodies but we're still alive. At least in a manner of speaking.

Raised to know love instead of hatred... maybe it would prevent us from traveling down the road of scorning humanity.

Even the man I knew-- the one who betrayed me, didn't really understand that. I don't think he could. I don't think it was out of malice, not really. It's just the way he is.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-07 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah? I always try and surprise people.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-07 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
I had a very long time to think about a lot of things.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-07 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure things would have gone well if we had, but at least we would have understood each other better.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-07 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
It is, isn't it?

And there are plenty of things that I regret.

But that's another notch that makes us people and not mindless theoretical dolls.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-07 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
We do.

He's been here a very long time. I'd believe he's found happiness.

[But there's the unstated sentence there: Greed hasn't.]
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-07 02:14 am (UTC)(link)
It is, isn't it?

It would seem that the odds are in our favor.

There are two members of the Amestrian military here, for what it's worth. One is from our world, though I'll be honest I only saw him briefly. The other is some sort of parallel version of the man I knew but he's very different in personality.

Couldn't tell you much about either of them, but the parallel man was the one who clued me in on the fact that the versions of us he knew were completely different people.

Though apparently even the "other" me still refused to play by the rules.
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[personal profile] ossifragant 2014-05-07 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure. He was extremely vague on the matter.

The impression I got was that the homunculi of his world are not a product of human transmutation.

The leader is also not Dante, but some figurehead known as Father-- which I wasn't told directly, but gathered from the fact that he referred to the group as a "family" and it seemed more literal than not in a sense.

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