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Lust ([personal profile] a_sin_for_him) wrote2025-07-03 04:49 pm
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cyan_maid: (Overwhelmed by sadness)

[personal profile] cyan_maid 2019-06-07 06:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[A response comes a little later...honestly, it would look a lot worse if it wasn't through text. Jane's crying. It's Bad.]

I think something like that situation has happened because I don't think it's possible for me to have done this weird "Ultimate Self" bullshit to him that he's claiming to be...
It's really weird and also he implied that I'm not worth his time because I'm not fifty million Janes slammed into one body and I don't matter, apparently!!!!
So I yelled at him and told him not to come over for Christmas...
Dinah's been hugging me for a while now and she won't let go...
And also apparently I'm controlling but honestly how would I know if I am? Lust, am I controlling???
God, maybe he's getting to me worse than I thought, I'm crying again.
Fuck.
cyan_maid: (NO NO NO)

[personal profile] cyan_maid 2019-06-08 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)







Okay.
I'm going to try. Breathing, that is. Deep breathing. I have been breathing, but not. You know, the helpful kind.









I'm. Still flabbergasted, I mean. Deep down, I always felt...like my friends were always wonderful people. And when I would get angry, I felt like I wasn't worthy of them afterwards.
This is just...
It really hurts to hear someone say as much in different words.
cyan_maid: (A tiny longing)

[personal profile] cyan_maid 2019-06-09 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
That's kind of how it feels, to be honest.
Like not only am I apparently a stranger to him, he's a total stranger to me, too.
And I can't fathom what could have happened to make that possible, besides his excuse.
cyan_maid: (Always happy chatting with you)

[personal profile] cyan_maid 2019-06-10 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
...That's true.
And while I'm here, I can't be that me.
Whatever path I'm on...it's probably diverged so much, it's impossible to be someone other than who I am now and where I CAN go from here.
I think.



...I'm really sorry for coming to you in a panic, Lust. This IS helping quite a lot.
cyan_maid: (Maid of Life)

[personal profile] cyan_maid 2019-06-16 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
...Yeah, I suppose so.



I don't really want to give up the idea that maybe he and I could still be friends. At the same time, however, I don't know how healthy trying would be...
But I can't NOT try, you know? It feels...like I'd be betraying everything our group meant to us if I did.
cyan_maid: (Melancholic)

[personal profile] cyan_maid 2019-06-17 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
Time. Alright. I can do that.
Just put some time between us.
He'll likely be fine on his own for a while anyway.