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It's odd, isn't it, how having a personal claim to a place can make it something more than just a building or room?

[Lust's tone and expression are thoughtful, rather than puzzled.]

I've stayed and lived in dozens and dozens of places, but they never meant anything. They were just that - places to stay, a point to return to. Even the pleasant or almost-permanent ones weren't particularly noteworthy and made little impression on me.

Why does choosing and laying claim to a place as yours suddenly make all the difference? It's such a strange quirk of emotions. Is it normal, to form some sort of emotional attachment to a place just because you've decided it's going to be your 'home'?

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Once upon a time I was a human woman in my home world. I don't remember much, because I died. And then someone tried to bring me back, but that's impossible. The closest that can be done is a homunculus, a created human made by science from the remains of the deceased that looks and sounds like the human who died. I think we do have memories, but...the details don't matter.

I remember that existence. Being a homunculus. I was told I didn't have feelings or a soul, and I was only an imitation of that woman. But I don't think that's true. I don't feel any different, inside, now that I've regained humanity. I have the same feelings, they're just stronger and more difficult to control.

And I have a chance now to understand them, why I feel them and what they mean. I want that chance.

[Oh.]

[Ohhhhhh. Well, suddenly this makes a lot more sense.]

Wait... from the remains? Can you even do that? I thought homunculi had to be grown from scratch!

But, uh, that makes sense, I guess.

I'm here, so apparently you can. At least by the laws of alchemy and the arcanum in my world.

Of course more than that is needed, at least the way I was brought back into the world. Remains, trace elements, flesh of the man who made the attempt taken in trade by the forces that regulate the balance of nature. That's always a nasty little surprise.

There is a way to do it from scratch, using the chemical components of a human body and a different sort of transmutation. But the result is the same.

My quest for understanding is mine. You shouldn't feel as though you must seek introspection or change yourself, just because others do. If you're happy as you are, why try and fix something that doesn't need it?

Well, I guess... yeah, you need something human to kickstart it... I just didn't know that the other limbs could grow back in the same exact way. Your world must have some pretty neat alchemy!

Also, why's the flesh of the creator a surprise? Drawing blood is common practice for, like, everything, at least where I come from.

[Guess who's spent his whole life in magic military school, Lust? This kid.]

Well, I dunno. Sometimes I feel like I should be, or I should at least want to. Because of growing up or whatever.

To be fair, it takes a few weeks for everything to end up where it should. We don't look human at first.

Blood, yes. Entire limbs and organs simply taken from the body as the transmutation begins? I confess I have very little personal knowledge of alchemists who've performed the transmutation, but those I do know were unprepared for that.

I don't know very much about growing up, I've always been twenty whatever the number is. As far as I remember. But I'd think that as one grows, one just changes and learns naturally.

[Henry snorts.]

They must not have been very good alchemists. I mean, you gotta put a part of yourself in to get something out, right? And bringing people back from the dead is kind of a big job. So it makes sense that you would need a big loss for a big gain.

But if you learned about a ritual to summon the dead and didn't get the part about the limbs... you've gotta be something really special to mess up that bad, nya ha!

...And yeah. I guess it just hasn't happened yet or something. [It's hard to tell if the smile is real or not, but he's at least able to keep it up. Seems that discussing alchemy has brightened his mood a little bit.]

From what I understand, it's simply not mentioned in the few places the transmutation is spoken of. Very few alchemists even know what a homunculus is, let alone that they can be made. And among those that do know, it's considered the ultimate taboo.

Though one would think that mentioning the loss of vital body parts would be a strong deterrent.

Maybe it's happening and you don't even realize.

Well... I guess I did get some pretty high-end training, so maybe most alchemists where I come from don't know about the limb thing either? [He shrugs.] Well, anyway, if the info is lost along the line, someone goofed up.

[And:]

Not realize? I mean, I guess it's possible, but...

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