"Sometimes I don't know if you are at the moment the feelings hit," she admitted. "You're naturally hard to read in general, and there were...circumstances, both times. The last thing I want to do is initiate that when you aren't in the mood. There's nothing enjoyable about it if you aren't in the mood."

She knew that full well.

"But I find you very handsome, and I like to think about kissing you, sometimes. I do think about those times."

Often.